Friday, 23 September 2016

#Memories : Part 10


It's true that it's not good to spill your secrets to any one person all at a time. Rather you should take some time to open yourself and crack the other's soul slowly and delicately. A Little distance is occasionally necessary .
The more time you take, more patient you will become. More time you spend, stronger the bond grows.
Which reminds me once He had said,' I invest only where it's profitable.' Again, he was the one who said, 'When in love, there's no profit, no loss.'
Only a couple of months until we see each other again.
We'll survive this distance, we will have to. To make many more new memories.

#Memories : Part 9


'Have you ever been afraid of anything?'
'Never. No..wait. Just that one time when I was late for almost twenty days.'
'And who was responsible for that?'
I looked at him with annoyance. How could he ask that?
I raised an eyebrow, 'You tell me?!'
He lifted his hand up in the air with a proud grin on his face.
It was funny how innocent he looked at that moment. Like a child who knows the answer and impatient to give it.
But the best part was that he wasn't afraid either, rather willing to take up the responsibility.

Saturday, 17 September 2016

#Memories : Part 8

If it would have been someone else, I wouldn't have believed.
But it's about Him. Because I have witnessed him win every game, almost impossible or lost ones.
He draws a card from a stack like a pro. Wins even without looking at the deck.
He knows how to fly a kite high in the autumn sky.
His fingers play most passionate chords on the guitar.
He volunteers to help others, be it a stranger. No- chivalry is not dead.
His camera has captured quite a many vivid moments.
He expresses in the most engaging voice, truly once heard cannot be forgotten.
His smile bright enough to cheer everyone around.
He knows how to cook a number of delicacies.
His unmatched intelligence, interest in all fields and tremendous urge for knowledge.
Plays cricket with the kids on the road.
He who loves and knows dogs.
And his dedication to his sport- swimming....I would leave it for him to complete.
Could he be any more perfect?

Once you fall in love with a writer, You live forever.

Once you fall in love with a writer, You live forever.
I love you more than can I ever love myself.
Selfless, Unconditional, Unrequited, Forever.

Just a word uttered by your lips, I could create any world with it.

Stoned, High, Tripping, Passed out.
I recall your name. Your presence is felt always around me.
The louder your music gets, sober my words.
Love me back if you want.
But dare you try and tame me.
For like sand, the tighter you hold me in your hand, the faster I will slip way.
I sat with a cigarette in my hand. Carefully observing the smoke taking shapes which only the wildest soul can possibly imagine.
The sensual curve of a feminine figure, born out of the same smoke, its slender, thick-white fume twisting into a distinctive piece of art.
An art you can put on canvas, only to find it dissolve in that blank surface and make space for something new.
Didn't I warn you before?
You are free a soul just like I am. Do what you wish behind my back, but return me my 'You' when you come Home.
Or not a word, not a mess, I will just leave without ever turning back.
P.S- I have to add until now I was barren and only fruitful after HE intervened.

Thursday, 15 September 2016

If you believe in Magic.

When I woke up in the middle of the night, he wasn't there with me. We had been together for a few months now. And never before had he left me alone at night.

I had fallen asleep earlier tonight. Our time together had been extremely passionate and pleasurable, like always, but tiring too.

We both had an exhausting day, and our slow love-making was the best thing we needed. Well, but nothing was slow about it.

I grabbed his shirt, which was dropped sometime during our make-out session and put it on. While buttoning it, I left the bedroom and headed towards his office, the only room he could be at that time if he wasn't with me. His office was on the other side of the hall, across the bedroom of his 3BHK apartment. The door of the room was open, but the lights were out. I slowly opened the door to look inside.

He was sitting on his chair, shirtless, just in his shorts. The only source of light in the room was from the window by his side, where he sat. He looked tempting as always, with those beautifully carved muscles of his, the messy black hair, eyes closed and one hand resting on his chest, while he slept peacefully. It was absolutely blissful to see him sleep without any worries.

I neared the distance between us and kneeled down in front of him. As if my presence was what he'd been waiting for. He opened his eyes and gave me a smile, but his eyes spoke something else. Something was not right, something was bothering him.

His eyes were fixed on mine, they were full of desire and passion. It was like a spell cast upon us, impossible to look anywhere else.

"Why ain't you in bed?" I asked softly, placing one hand on his thigh. "Is something troubling you? You know you can share anything with me." I was seriously concerned about what causing him distress.

"No." he replied," And Yes I know. But it's nothing sweetheart."
But it was not. I could tell something was not right.

I rose up, and stood between his legs,took his face in my hands, and placed a kiss on his forehead. It was a simple gesture to make him know, I was there for him, no matter what. I would always be.

" Tell me. What can I do to make you feel better? What do you need?"

He pulled me closer by my waist and buried his face against my breasts. His hands securely locked around me. He placed a kiss on my stomach before letting go.

"I just need you."

He rose from his chair and scooped me up in his arms. He carried me towards the bedroom.

"Am I heavy? Do I weight too much?" I asked hoping to lighten the atmosphere.

He looked at me eyes and rolled his lip down as if to say it didn't matter. As If I weigh nothing.

He gently put me on the bed and climbed on top of me. He bent down to meet his lips with mine, while his hands were right at work unbuttoning the only few buttons I could manage to do earlier.

As his lips swept against mine, his hands parted the shirt to exposed my underneath. He never needed much time to undress, especially when the dress was nearly undone.

I nibbled his lower lip , as his hands grabbed my breasts, massaging them in a circular motion, thumbs rubbing over the hardened nipples. I arched up as the pleasure started building up. Our tongues rolled with each other, at perfect synchronization. I grabbed the waistband of his shorts and had it down in few seconds. As he completely got rid of it, I removed the shirt I was wearing.

I rode him, made him lay on his back, and kissed him. His hands were on my back, fingers tracing lines, sending thrills deep within my bones. I was completely lost in the moment. He took one of my nipples in his mouth, sucked it hard, teased it with his teeth, repeated that with the other.

I let my hand have his cock which was half-hardened already. I worked it up, with regular up-and-down motion.

He groaned against my breasts, and that was it. I put him in my mouth and pumped him thoroughly. I looked at him to find him enjoying the moment. His eyes were closed, lips bit left apart and breaths quickened.
Suddenly, he stopped me and turn me under him in a swift motion, spreading my legs by my knees.

He immediately went down on me. His tongue gave long swept against my sex. He tugged the most sensitive spot while his finger inserted into me. He worked in and out, rising my pleasure level.
I grabbed him by his shoulder, my nails digging deep into his skin. He added another finger, and I was almost about to shatter.

He withdrew his fingers and entered himself into me.  All distance closed, secrets were forgotten, all worries left behind. He grabbed my butts to lift me up, pumped himself in me. He increased the pace and thumped quickly.
Until then, there was a certain emptiness but having him inside me, had me completed.

I had both my hands over the top of my head,holding the edge of the bed. He lifted my legs over his shoulders and continued his action. My climax was almost taken to its extreme. He slowed a little, took some time to slowly pull himself out and entered back. In the slow full motions, he continued before
falling over me, his face against my neck, without taking himself out.

After a short break, we had round two and three and then again. Twice to took himself out, as we didn't use any contraceptives. The session which seemed almost of an hour or more got us two impressive orgasms together.

While we laid on the bed afterward, I hoped his downstair neighbor wasn't disturbed by our wild shrieks and pleasure moans. I wrapped my arms around him, lips pressed on his neck, nose sniffling the essence around.

Yes,indeed, it was all magical. And another beautiful memory conceived.

Wednesday, 14 September 2016

First ever Bengali post

তোকে ছেরে থাকার মধ্যে আছে তোকে ফিরে পাওযার আশা ,
কখনো না কখনো বা বুঝি,
মন মেনে নিতে চায় না তোর চলে যাওয়া,
কিন্তু নেই কোনো অধিকার যে তোকে ধরে রাখি |
হয়তো তুই ফিরবি আমার কাছে,
জরিয়ে ধরে, নিবি আপন করে,
বাসবি ভালো আরো অনেক বেশি |
দিবি সব যন্ত্রনা ভুলিয়ে,
খুশিতে জিবন ভরিয়ে,
চোখের জল মুছে, ফুটিয়ে দিবি মুখে হাশি |
তোর চোখে হারিয়ে ফেলি নিজেকে,
আর তোর হাশিতে খুজে পাই
নতুন করে বাঁচার শত কারন,
তাই বার বার শুধু তোকেই চাই |
দেখতে দেখতে এসে যাবে সেই দিন
কাছে টেনে বলব কানে কানে,
"শুধু অপেক্ষা নয় এ আমার,
বাবু, ভালবাশি তোকে, আর বাসব চিরদিন |"
P.S- Sometimes vernacular does what English cannot.
#dedicated

A couple of thousand miles away

She feared her too much care might irritate him.
She kept herself busy to forget his absence.
He needed space and she gave him that.

Despite all sorrows, she put up a smile and functioned as per as her usual schedule the whole week.

When her time for pay came,
She stayed awake all night,
On their day- of being together
Waiting for a single text,
Unknown to what he's upto a couple of thousand miles away.

Your return.

Now the fingers trace the empty bed, it seems cold.
Outside,
The sky is quiet, the moon is alive.
Witnessing
At different places, miles away
In different worlds;
Two individuals-
One is unaware while the other awaits.
'What's the best thing about your leaving?'
'What?' He'd asked.
'Your return.'
Eyes met, and a shy smile was introduced to a sexy smirk.
'The good thing is when I'll see you after all this time, it'll feel wonderful. Distance will deepen what we have.'
'It can be the opposite. Separation can reduce the chance of what we might.' He'd answered.
'Maybe. But hope- that's gonna keep me alive in your absence.'
You're missed. Take care, Stay safe.

Random Thought #3

He: How do you know?Did I tell you that?who are you? Why do I tell you everything?
*Takes another sip of his beer*
Me: How'd I know?(smirking)
He: *tries to think hard*
Me: Maybe you should maintain a diary.Just so you know what all you feed me.

                                                ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


I don't want your goodbye kisses but I need your welcome hugs.
Still, I'm ready to let the emptiness gulf me once again.
I wish I could kiss the back of your palms and say,' I Love You too.'


He is not my excuse to escape the reality.
He is my new dream.

                                                  ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I Love You. I Miss You.
Every second, every moment of my life.
In case you wanna know
How I am or What I am doing,
I am miserable and absolutely doing fine in what I do best.
Waiting for you, your reply, your words, your voice,
And above all, your return.

                                                     ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

We don't need to talk everyday. No need of asking how things are.
For nothing can go wrong.
My prayers have your name, to harm you they'd have to get through me.

                                                    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

There's always this one last/final limit, which on being crossed you can't torture yourself anymore and instead give the power in the hands of someone else...someone better.
Pro. Prakton. Wherever I wish to call... Mystery will still suit the best.
Mind-fuck is still the favorite game and pastime.

                                                      ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

It had to be just at the time when everything in my life was proportionately perfect, a single thought would crumple all down.
Will live for myself but none can ever stop me from loving you.

                                                       ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Who said I am crying, I don't cry....why would I? I am doing fine.
I have absolutely nothing to lose. For you can never lose what's never yours.

                                                        ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

"I love you."
He knew my weakness well. He smiled and I was sent back to the time when it all started.



Random Thought #2

Kneeling in front of each other, fingers intertwined;
Bodies at closest proximity, skin to skin.
Having him all by myself after all this time.
Wrapping my arms around him, pressing my face against his chest, I whisper, 'Let's celebrate.'
He holds me tight as if to never let go.
It's something I would never get enough.
I've missed his touch for two whole months.
His care, his closeness, his love.
The days were dull,
Time ran slow,
Well, I lacked a few shades of hues that even the city seemed lifeless.
But now he has come back,
To home, to me.
Lots to be shared, much to be discussed.
But that can wait until the quench of our souls is satisfied.
'Celebrate what?' He asked as he parted my hair, baring one of my shoulders,
His fingers trace lines slowly over my back.
I look up to meet his eyes.
'Us'
And as he claims my lips with his, my wildness gets her Master.
The tempest in me just found her equal, the perfectly imperfect match.
At least, this full weekend, I have him until this Monday.

#Memories

Wrapped my arms around him,
Kissed the back of his neck,
Let our legs intertwined,
And found him shivering.

"Turn" my mind wished.

And he did, our eyes locked;
He pulled me closer,
Buried his face between my breasts and inhaled;
As he took in my essence
He left me empty.

#Memories : Part 6

'Isn't that a palazzo?' He asks.
'Mm-hmm. Is there anything that you don't know about?' I counter question.
'You know a few more inches, and you could have been a supermodel.'
Huh?! Where did that come from? With my height, it wasn't like I never got such suggestions before....But why would he suddenly bring that up?
Is he mocking me?
Surely, two can play this game.
'Well. That's what heels are for. There was a time when I loved wearing them too.'
'Which ones? How much can your feet take?' He smirks.
What?! How does he know about heels?
I can vouch for that he isn't gay. Then that only leaves another alternative, he is a freaking know-it-all with a list of chicks behind the source of his knowledge.
'Um..Four inches.'
'A guy above six-feet would look great by your side then.'He said while tapping his foot.
This is getting way beyond irritating.
'Yeah...like you should with bimbos whose tits could give it tough to melons.' I'm mad...really mad.
'32B. I ain't complaining.' He says trying hard to suppress his smile.
'It's not thirty-......'
Fuck! is there anything that this man doesn't know about?

#Memories : Part 5

He put the glass down, his smile faded, and eyes lost their sparkle.
I climbed on the bed to sit beside him. Lifted my hand to touch his face.
He didn't let me.
'I'm sorry' I was screaming from the inside. 'I didn't have any other option.' But lips stayed still.
'Did you ask me before taking the decision?' His voice sounded hurt yet stern enough to send a chill through my spine.
I remained silent. And so did he.
I needed a few drinks to confess about it. And it not only had my nerve strong but bit charged up too.
I locked my fingers around his neck and pulled him close for the last kiss.
He stopped me, let my hands drop.
'Go and sit over there.' It wasn't a request.
It had hurt, never before did he refused my touch.
Our moment of passion is something that overpowers all other heats.
I distanced myself to the farthest end of the bed.
Finishing his drink in one gulp, he sat there with his head down.
Seeing him like that, it broke my heart into pieces.
What have I done? But what's happened cannot be undone.
After what seemed like an eternity, he called my name offering me his hand.
I swear my heart had skipped a few beats that moment.
When I reached him this time, he wrapped his arms around my waist, those watery eyes fixed on mine.
'Tell me your exact words. I'm sure something can be altered. Neither can you leave me nor can I live without you.'

#Memories : Part 4

Branded and Bonded.
We are done with reading each other's souls.
He: Marry me?
Me: Um..I don't believe in marriages.
He: Okay.
Me: But if I ever do, it will be with you.
He: Why would you, when you don't even believe in marriages?
Me: Because you want to.
He: No. Never change yourself for anyone, not even for me.
Well, that's the Man I fell more in love with.

#Memories : Part 3

I no longer miss.....
..... miss only how almost in all our meeting he would sing me the 'Whisky lullaby' or Denver's 'Leaving on a jet plane' or that one time the only song he'd leant during his stay in Shillong, while his beautiful fingers played the chords on a guitar.
While I long to call him 'My Man', I pray for his safety, his good health and success.

#Memories : Part 2

A whole week of no communication.
Monday: *Bored* I'll be there, the place where a little peace lingers.
Then I saw him coming, with someone else by his side.
Tuesday: I pray we don't meet today.
Then again I saw him, huh?! Even the color of our T-shirts matched.
Wednesday: *nice weather* Don't let it rain if it does I must be deep in love.
Damn!! The sky had to pour all it had got right at that moment.
Thursday: Back at the same place, hope he doesn't show up tonight.
*about to take a sip of my lemon tea*
He takes the glass from my hand.
Sits by my side removes the earphone,
And leans closer.
"Why is it you always find me when I'm in the most hideous outfits?" I couldn't help but ask.
"It's never about what I see you in, but the fact that I find you. How hard you try to hide or ran away, I'll always find you. Stuck, you're forever stuck with me."
You know who I blame?
Just the early April showers, irritatingly enchanting charms of the Koel, the dying season of Spring, a few 'chances-coincidences' and the most incredible person I've ever known.
And all these for what if you ask.
The answer is quite simple,
'To make me fall in love...in love for real.'

Saturday, 10 September 2016

#Memories : Part 1

First meet

The tall, masculine figure crossed the road.
'Damn he is handsome. Why haven't I noticed that before.' I mumbled.
'Hey.' He said offering me his hand.
'Um..' cleared my throat,' Hello.'
Why am I feeling uneasy? He's a nobody. Had known him earlier, but never thought of meeting him like this. I should have taken some liquor to ease my nerve like I generally do.
We didn't have a good start, and for the first time I couldn't care any less for anyone, then why such sudden awkwardness.
'Let's go and sit somewhere.'he suggested.
'I don't mind walking.' I said.
'Actually one of my friends is here with me. I hope you don't mind that...'
'Hey..that's fine.' Alright?! First-meet with a bone between the flesh. Not bad.'Where is he?'
'Washroom.' he gave a laugh.' He had a few drinks.'
I smiled. Just then I knew what it was all about.
'How many did you have?'
'Two or three.' He stopped to look at me.' How did you know? Do I smell of beer?'
'Um..no. I just know.'
Well, I wasn't the only one nervous about the meeting.